Don't Stop Dancing

At times life is wicked
And I just can't see the light
A silver lining sometimes just isn't enough
To make some wrong seem right

Whatever life brings
I've been through everything
And now I'm on my knees

But I know I must go on
Although I've heard I must be strong
Because inside I know
That many feel this way

Children, don't stop dancing
Believe, you can fly
Away
Away

I've got to get away; I need a break. The past few months have been stumbling forward at an uncomfortable pace. I can't hardly keep up. A bad mix of insomnia, tears, words, alcohol, loss of appetite, anxiety and damned insecurities have mixed me up like a banana in a blender. Sometimes I wonder if I've had a chance at all during this tricky transition period. I messing up inside, big time. It's no wonder I'm shrinking. Kiat, you silly boy... You damned fool. My belief in chivalry and all the honourable traditional values have led me to nothing but heartbreak... Yet I'm stubbornly holding onto them, hoping that they would withstand the relentless waves of time and change. I find that I can't move; I don't know how to.

I'm sorry to have caused you such worry and compounded your frustrations earlier. You were right all along. I think too much, regardless of need, time and place. And it doesn't help now that there are but a few stabilising factors left in my life visa vis before graduation. But your infectious confidence tells me that we will have our time, and that we will find one another again. I'm trying my very best. For you.

At times life's unfair
And you know it's plain to see
You got to know that I'm just a dot in this world
Have you forgot about me?

Whatever life brings
I've been through everthing
And now I'm on my knees

But I know I must go on
Although I've heard I must be strong
Because inside I know
That many feel this way

Children, don't stop dancing
Believe, you can fly
Away
Away

Am I hiding in the shadows?
Forget the pain and
Forget the sorrow

Am I hiding in the shadows?
Forget the pain and
Forget the sorrow

But I know I must go on
Although I've heard that I must go on
Because inside I know
That many feel this way

Children, don't stop dancing
Believe, you can fly
Away
Away

~ "Don't Stop Dancing" by Creed.

PS: This isn't an unhappy entry. I'm just telling it as it is. Give me some time, and I'll find another more well-adjusted and humorous way to look at the problem.

JKLM