Shut

These doors I see
Lay open and closed
They speak to me
Urging for a choice

Through one and another
I walked on, but
Often I wonder
About right and wrong

When I found no more
Searching blind and broken
Still I was hoping for
A chance, a door still open

Then through the night
You opened doors
And brought your light
To show much more

At last, I was found
But I was blinded
Without a sound
Your light ended

It was not the wind
It was not the night
But the door closing
That put out your light

Left, shut and alone
I wander on again
How it could have gone
Like a whisper of your name

So I'm holding on

Still I'm holding out

It's been so long

Since your dawn

Through The Rain

On my flaming steed I've riddern

Where the winds would lead.

I've come to here from afar

To be precise, 15 kilometers so far.

But the rain hads been kind

It yields an unexpected find.

A precious hidden sight

A treasure by the fading light.

What have I seen?

Where have I been?

Oh, I've discovered a backyard sunset

But it's you that I can't forget.

Real

In every boy

In every girl

Should see their worth

In this world

Bless their soul

With words of old

Teach them well

And keep them real

Show them doors

Between the walls
Give them strength to walk
On through them tall

To live and learn
To dream and yearn
And not to bend
And simply wait their turn

At Long Last

At last we've closed this chapter
At last one forgives another
The story of our twisted fate
A weary heart, finally given up on hate

"I forgive you," were her words
That showed me love, beyond the hurt
Oh how badly we had to burn
Our lessons in blood, we had to learn

"I had long forgiven you," I prayed
In return, a reality I never did say
But what can one do but to apologise
Again to soothe a wounded disguise

At long last, exoneration
It's been so long since we spoke
Between what we've done to against the other
There could still be hope

A hand or a fist, by which we meet
It is our choice, with love or in defeat
We met in love, and parted by fire
Down rained her fists, I was cursed as a liar

This heart how it has crawled
Into your lap and onto the floor
Time and you have now forgive this cage
Risen, has hope, above this wreckage

Thank you, I was wrong
Thank you, you were strong
But I can't say enough
About the irony of love wronged

Peace

Peaceful mind
O' peaceful heart
In these dark times
We're far apart

I look for you
In every turn
Impatient I wait
For your return

Your graceful touch
I need it so
To carry me forth
When these fights get old

But these days between
I do treasure much
For I've learnt and grown
Because we're apart

Your will to stay or go
I cannot mould
But I'll stay true
If you'll promise so

Look Away

Take your eyes
Look away, look out
At the clouds and the sun

Turn you eyes
Look up, look around
You've looked at this path too often

Take your heart
Live strong, live true
There's still hope yet in your hand

Make a dream
Stay true, stay firm
Do not let this valley crowd your heart

Say a prayer
Believe, you must believe
In you, this land, and the warm sunrise

Let The Rain Do The Rest

This whirlwind in the brain box
Above a beating flame
I try and try to figure
But it will never be the same

If the universe should conspire
To choose a left from right
Or between an obvious fire
And a subtle pondering night

It shall be no one's blame
When it's all like a game
Each roll of dice or punches
Was never meant to be the same

And so with each new morning
Within my beating chest
I pray to see you smile again
And let the rain do the rest

Christmas 2005

Ink and smiles bring Seasons Greetings
T'is the season for thanks-giving
Thou tummies fill do turkey roasts
It's hearts that warm under mistletoe

A season, a reason - to rejoice and cheer
A time, a rhyme - to cheris all that is dear
For seven days and endless nights
Through mind and bory, we've had to fight

To push, to pull - to goals we'd try
Perhaps one day we'll really fly

But wings I need not to walk on clouds
When your hands grace mine, I have no doubt
On napkins, a parcment of women wood hair
I carve a river through lyrical dare

An ode to you, a christmas wish
A bow to Santa's nice-naughty list

I must've been good for a whole long time
To get my present so soon yet fine
I guess my wish for snow has to wair
For now, a white christmas can't beat your date!

A first in years, i've never felt more
The way your twinkle drowns out the roar
Wat crowd, what din, what joyous chaos
All replaced, all parted by the prayer of yours


"Merry Christmas 2005,

Love Kiat"



*scribbled across a Starbucks Coffee napkin.



I miss that.

5 a.m.

I woke to the rain this morning
Looked out onto the streets
I was looking for a sign of you
A whisper of hope, that you were coming

Caught in the drops and winds that swept me by
I thought I saw your soul
And for a moment it was alright
But now, the moment's gone and I'm alone

Said a prayer and felt it touch the ground
Like these kisses from heaven
They all came crashing down
To remind me of all that I have missed

So I took a breath and closed my eyes
Tried to hide away
Keep all that was cold inside
Drive the lonliness away

The space beside me is still quiet
It's been empty for so long
No soft familiar breathing
Instead a slow burn yearning

Caught in the thoughts and sighs that turn inside
I thought I had it all
Now with the drinks the dreams they come alive
And make me want you more and more and more

Said a prayer and felt it touch the ground
Like these kisses from heaven
They all came crashing down
To remind me of all that I have missed

Kiss the rain and let it wash over your soul
Close your eyes and open your heart
Hold out your soul
And for a moment forget what you have missed

Photographs

Your memories
Play like a film
Without sound
Before me, slowly

Those good times
Are still alive
Very much so
Somewhere, not now

This place, this face
These things you shared
Are kept close
Like a teardrop

But they are not mine
These journeys
They inspire
And show me much

So I shall from now
Remember and love
Start my own film
Together with yours

Sunset

One more sunset, sliding past the six

One more moment dressed with grace

We know the night comes

It'd be a shame to let it pass

On so little the night we must last

Beg the loveliness to stay
When the colours fade away

If you believe the night will end

If you believe the sun will come

If you can open your eyes and your heart

To the love between

Then the sunset will be yours

She will be yours

We flew in on the same winds

We loved the memories they bring

For a while, it was perfect

But the moments and day did pass

With so little, the nights we must last

Your loveliness did stay

The sunset couldn't burn it away

You said, believe the night will end

Believe the sun will come

For me, open your eyes and your heart

To this love between

The sunset will be yours

The sunset will be ours

Now comes the night

Hold on to the light

The sunset will be ours

The sunset will be ours

One Rainy Night

I walked across an empty street,
Stopped by a street lamp
In the drizzle to breathe

I touched the earth, embraced the air
Felt all the life around me
To the tip of my hair

Oh, simple words
How you have come
Found me in yearning
Then took me into your arms

For a simple fate
Not complex thoughts
Just hold me close and
Give me a reason to live on

I came upon a lonely tree,
Felt the glancing raindrop
Like your generous kiss

I read your words
Those precious gifts
They seem to always make me complete

Oh, simple words
How you have come
Found me in yearning
Then took me into your arms

For a simple fate
Not complex thoughts
Just hold me close and
Give me a reason to live on

If you have a heartbeat
Why don’t we just go
To a place where only we know
To share and learn about the reasons

Why no one else shows
Yet no one else knows
In a place where only we know

A Brief Touch of Light

If Heaven meant to lead us
Through these gates of stone and fire
If Fate meant to show us
Just how impatiente we were

If choices had always given us
Everything we wouldn't choose
And if life has frequently taken
What we'd rather not lose

What choice of knowing,
A choice for the willing?
Or a force of the able
Empty as an aged fable

When you'd rather turn away
When you can just step aside
Listen as a wind blows
Across this great divide

Beyond the yester yearnings
Or the anguish of tears denied
A candle truth shall be our light
Compassion will then be our guide

Sit, stop and stare
With each step come a breath
Slowly, open thy inner eye
To embrace the reasons why

In little over a revolution
In more than a few words
You shall be shown more
Than you could have heard

So fight not stubborn battles
Dig deep no furrowed brows
Compassion does not insist equals
But just an inner smile

Confession

Through your gates I walk,
Carrying all I cannot hold
My heart aflamed, I cannot hide
You are my Aphrodite, a goddess

Your eyes, they are like mirrors
They show what I could not find
Your lips have whispered
Reflections, sweet beyond time

Oh, how your eyes tease me
How your sighs, they fill me
With my endless imagination
Of bitter regret transformed

There is no comfort in silence
No chance of passing up
That I can, but also must
Confess a dream, a wanton secret

I want, so much I shouldn't
I can't stop, so many words
What have you done to me
All I can remember is a craving

Time

Take time, give time
Do what you would between
But remember, none shall pass
Until the winds have changed


The mountains will wait
Posseidon's Will shall stay
While we yearn and burn
With our right to fight

Continue to hope
Stop not the breath
The beating living dream
Let no heart sing alone

Each pass we meet
Each ridge we crawl
Shall fade and yield
As we meet them bold

For it is not with wayward
Strength that we beat them
But with courage
That we try to understand

Not to yield to whims
Nor to bend to trials
But to serve a great mystery
A strive for self-mastery

So take time and give time
And think, think, think
Think to find, to know
To see and be one, with time

She Inspires

Why do we sail,
For a face, a name
Or for fairytale gold?


To touch with Gods
To feel their wisdoms
To know the truths they may hold?

For inspiration
In desperation
Or simply to get out, out there?

To know her
It is pointless
She would only show me myself

Beyond my promises
Beneath my hopes
She believes there is more

Without fear
Without favour
She chooses me for now

She gives
She takes
She inspires without sides

And now I believe
There is more
And I shall never go back

Before I Go

17 minutes overdue, I received a concerned piece of advice; thus followed this piece, dedicated to the unexpected moments of impending realisation, of powerful inspiration.

"Before I Go"

I have challenged the tides
Debated the winds,
And questioned the sun.

They all speak
A wisdom to me, profound,
Only with a greater patience.

They make me feel young
I make myself feel righteous
To that, they will only smile, and wait.

"Those who follow the Gods,
Kiss their steps, worship
And know their songs," they said

"Will find neither heaven gates
nor hell fires; only love."
And I am silenced.

"Release yourself and allow us
From thy fervent prison;
Full of burning faith and conviction."

I am all but quiet, in the company
Of a beating guilty nod within
I cannot ignore my heart, no.

"Fight not these blameless angels
To demand a worldly miracle,"
They continue, piercing my shame

"Walk with feet of own,
Fly only with wings given.
Try not and confuse not the two."

"For you and We are one
But not the same. Go."
And I went, along, away; aware.

Minutes From Departure

From deep within
Our canyon stalls,
We emerged burnt
From giving it all

Where lies the truth
A balm to soothe?
What hearts we've laid
Upont them these lines of truth

Oh how we tire
As they conspire
To break us down
We will run today

SPREAD THE COLOURS DEEP AND FAST
THIS IS OUR BRAND NEW START
THE NIGHT WE SHALL RESIST
RISE UP TODAY, TO A PROMISE

Oh how we tire
Of their desires
To hold us back
We must run today

FIGHT THE WAVES DEEP AND FAST
THIS IS OUR CHANCE TO START
OUR FEARS SHALL CEASE
AS WE RISE UP, TO A PROMISE

WE SHALL RISE TODAY
THSI IS OUR PROMISE

On Fire

I long for a touch
The light to put out the night
The whisper that lingers
Between me and the edge

I long for the mystery
A thought that would not leave
A fire burning up slowly
A heart, a willing captive

I pray for one more chance
To be on fire
To breathe this mystery
To be close to Love again

Cos everything I know now
Feels like everything I hate
There’s no truth that I can take
There’s no truce that I can make

I long for you, again
For all the nights you’re near me
For all your mysteries
For all the fire you brought me

I pray for one more chance
To be on fire
To make these verses more than
Empty sounds and empty words

Cos I finally know now
You’re the chance I want to see
You’re the times to truly live
You’re one last chance that I’d take

I’ve been burnt
But I’m still on fire
Whenever I think
When you come around

You and your mysteries
You’re a mystery…
I’m on fire…

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Its's Valentines Day today, I'm longing to be on fire. Burn me again, won't you?

I know you're lighting up another night somewhere out there.

You're always crazy that way. You're always beautiful that way.

That's why you've always had a way. That's why you're a mystery, at the edge of me.

Burn me again, won't you?

A New Start

These points we’ve chosen
Along our lives
They form our destiny

One step with another
One point, one day
One breath by you and me

Across, over and beyond
We walk, step to fly
Away from mediocrity

With only truth to heart
We remain on these paths
And push on with tenacity

For each point we may choose
Shall lead to another
Arriving, a renewed destiny

Song For A Friend

Your skies have turned to grey
Fade to black
No more familiar sounds
To come home to

You have made me whole
And made me smile
When nothing was ever enough
But now you're gone

NOW THERE'S JUST A SPACE
WHERE YOU ONCE LAY
AND IT'S YOUR FACE I SEE
IN EVERY PLACE

You never knew just what
You've done for me
I've tried to carry you
And give you everything

Now that you're gone
Who'll break my fall?
Now that you're far away
Who'll help me carry on?

NOW THERE'S JUST A SPACE
WHERE YOU ONCE LAY
AND IT'S YOUR FACE I SEE
IN EVERY PLACE

They say that all dogs
Go to heaven
I say that of all dogs
You were my heaven

NOW THERE'S JUST A SPACE
WHERE YOU ONCE LAY
AND IT'S YOUR FACE I SEE
IN EVERY PLACE

NOW WHO IS GOING TO SAVE ME
WHEN YOU'RE GONE?
WHO'LL WATCH OVER ME
WHEN YOU'RE GONE?

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Because loss was will never be easy to deal with. No, not for you.

Running Out

Should the world come crashing
When life itself seems spinning
Can no one set this right
Will we last this night

Cast it all into the sunrise
Watch the fire come to life
Breathe like you’ve got nothing to loose
Oh, this is a life we must choose

On the brink of another life
An enigmatic sign that it’s alright
We shall rise above today
To find it all, ready to go our way

Release

Behind the calm
Beneath the quiet breath
A spirit remains
Ready for the test

Within the silence
Behind the burning memory
A desire brews
Yearning for release

Let the winds open your heart
Let time guide your way
Believe in a brand new start
You've got to find a way

You will find a way

You suffer the burden
Of a persistent hopefulness
Though paths cross
And doors led to emptiness

Yesterday held little
Nothing was what it seemed
You had to find a way
To wake from this bad dream

So let the winds open your heart
Let time guide your way
You'll make a brand new start
Believe in a better day

Just when you stop believing
When it all seems to stop
When the dreams become faded
And your hands become jaded

You've got to find a way
To live another day

Let the winds open your heart
Let new dreams spread your wings
Today, to a new start
Hold on, pray and fly away

Hillsong

Oh hills,
You are our loyal chaperon.
How gentle you are,
To show us your rivers
Your lights and your people.

Oh sun,
You are our enigmatic guide.
How warm you are,
To come to wrap us for only hours
In your glow and your blessings.

Oh wind,
You are our lasting companion.
How constant you are,
Early to rise and last to sleep,
You never tire of whispers
Nor fail to go unoticed.

Oh Chiang Rai,
You are our loving parent.
How you have give us all,
From hills to sun and wind,
You've shown us your people
And through them, ourselves.


JKLM