Her-t

I wanted to hurt you
Just to know that we mattered
That I mattered
That we were worth something
Though you were always worth more
More than you were
More than I should
More than we knew how to deal

I wanted to hurt you
Because it would hurt me too
And I'd have something
To be sorry about
Even if it was my fault
Especially if it was my fault
And you were right
And so was I, just differently

I wanted to hurt you
And I did - I left, I closed
The only windows I opened
For you, for me
For what I hoped we could be
For who I wanted you to be
So plainly, so simply,  yet unfairly
I played my part, and paid my part

I wanted to hurt you
Not anymore, not now

Not when you're far away

And I'm on this one-way street

Mending a way by each streetlight

Slowly no longer mad, and desperate

Your ghosts have no more echoes 

And mine no longer alone in the shadows

Masks (Haiku)

Put on masks that smile

Lament the lover we chose

Scared to be alone

Made up minds to try

Struggle against tides inside

Unsure, unfair - life

Take off masks that cry

Let the sun and wind creep in

Forget, for a while

Disclosure (Goodbye, My Love)

This is it
A destination
Not one I wanted
But one we deserved

One of many
That could be worse
Or could have been
But life, forced into reverse

I've held back
Not for fear
But in consideration
For both our realities

Yes, you're right
I've not been open
No comedic relief
In the drought of our hardships

My romances
Misunderstood
Rolling off these stone walls
An accident we couldn't avoid

Your mystery
I could not unravel
From perfection, so quickly
A vintage spoilt, rotten

I've made mistakes
Clearly, been unable too
Get what was not given
To see what was well hidden

The final judgement
Served clean and cold
There will be no more chapters
No verbatim; a termination

Turned away
It was complicated, compounded
Who was this for
It was for you; it was for me

Accepting the faults
Perhaps we both did, blinded
By love, but for whom
It was for you; it was for me