Honestly

Have you had ever had
A feeling so deep
Your soul could cry
Even if asleep

I tingle with this feeling
Each time I pass that way
Each time I pass that hill
Since we met that day

I took a turn again today
The second time around
A way I didn't need
As if I heard a sound

A whisper, perhaps
A tug at my soul
From the void of memory
And into my world

Honestly, I miss you
But I am now afraid
While you are there
I stay put and wait

Not for a call
But for a sign
A quiet stuboorn hope
That I am still alive

What we would have given
For love and its consequence
What we'd never know
Of life and its coincidence

When the next step up
Speaks of duty and faith
When the next step beyond
Is closer to the edge

The edge of me
The edge of imagination
To grab you by the dreams
Into a new religion

This step that we could make
Our dig at ever after
Too soon? Too long?
I'm afraid of what's after

I took that turn today
Perhaps I will again one day
And I will still hear that sound
Of a heart that cannot be bound